today is november 4th, 2017. it’s been quite a while since i’ve updated this blog, oops? college has been good so far. well, maybe a little less than good, i don’t know. it’s really hard for me to stay motivated and with the winter just right around the corner and that means lot’s of overcast sky’s. it’s definitely been affecting my mood overall. not to mention i had a panic attack during my portion of a group presentation. so i’ve been a little shaken up. i also have a couple things that i’m going to be turning in late because of my really bad habit of procrastinating. so that’s not fun. i’m also not going to be an interior design major anymore. i realized that it’s much more on a hobby of mine than something that i want to make a living doing. all i really want to do is just work in an office for a cool company that shares a lot my values and beliefs, make friends, be able to support myself, and be able to travel around the world and just enjoy life, ya know? so i’m looking into majoring in something business-related. another thing that’s been on my mind lately is whether or not i want to stay up here at UI. the only reason i wanted to apply here was because they offered interior design. now that i’m not majoring in that, i don’t know if i want to stay up here. i miss Boise more and more every single day. don’t get me wrong, i do really like it up here. i’ve met so many amazing people and i’ve already made so many memories, i just feel like it’s a little too much. I feel like I need to get better at managing my time instead of trying to by being thrown in to it. i’m really thinking about taking a year off after my freshman year is over to just take it easy for a while, save up my money, and give my brain a break for once. i already feel better just getting all of this out of my head. i keep forgetting i have this blog because i keep getting anxiety about all of the stuff i have to do and i just feel like i get overwhelmed too easily by it all. and now i feel kind of stuck here because i just got a job on campus. so that’s what’s been going on in my life at the moment. hopefully i’ll remember to post some more pictures i’ve taken and get some feelings out sooner than later.
– kerry x